She has been gone for two weeks tomorrow. What a long dark two weeks it has been. We decided (mostly me) to hold off on a visit until I felt emotionally stable. I am on the edge of normal now…I think. That means:
1. I can breath.
2. I am not crying/angry 24/7
3. I can say her name mostly without water works.
4. I am not staring into a void
5. I am ok
I called relative and set up a visit for this evening!!!! I am very excited. I have had a couple of nights full of guilt for not going to see her already and nightmares about how it will go so I am eager to put those to rest. I am also very hopeful that this will begin an ongoing relationship with her family and ours. My children have struggled and are missing her very much so I think this will be really good for them also.